Wouldn’t let me update so here’s it in a comment

TL;DR FOR THE UPDATE BELOW: pretty anti-climactic we asked at our feelings and didn’t say anything to her directly but agreed that we both enjoyed ourselves and that it was very intimate and that we’re good

Update for those who asked: he bought me lunch and we sat in my truck eating, just shooting the shit like we normally do and I asked him to come to the dump with me because I could tell he was stalling and also needed help at the dump lol.

Some one here asked why I didn’t initiate the conversation, because I did the first time around and he wasn’t ready to talk about it and so I let him take his time.

eventually on the way back from the dump he kind of just was like “so… What’s up?” And I was like “well I’ve said my peace and you needed some time for the dust to settle” so then I let the silence go on for a little bit waiting to see if he can come up with some thing and I could tell he was struggling so I told him something true, but not necessarily some thing you need to say, just to kind of warm him up and what I said was “I’ll be be honest, when it comes down to brass tacks it was a really nice night it’s very nice to be held by another person that you trust and respect.” He agreed and was like “is there something going on is what I’m trying to figure out?” And I told him I honestly didn’t really know, like objectively he’s attractive but I did go through a break up that he knows about and so I tend to do stupid shit after a break up and I cited a guy that I was seeing casually that I jumped into a little too quick and I realize we are in a match and I had to awkwardly break that off. He knows about this guy and my qualms.

We parked and kind of just went back-and-forth about how we feel, I started with that no matter which way either of us is leaning, we both know that this would be a risk and I’m not willing to compromise for a friendship or working relationship cause you’re both really good. I told him that I’m not really sure it’s a tossup if I feel anything and even then I don’t trust my own emotions right now as I’m in a vulnerable place, he said there wasn’t really necessarily something going on with him but it also wasn’t necessarily something not going on with him if that makes sense? I apologized again and told him I’m sorry that I did that and he pretty much said it was mutual like I might’ve just been feeling that way because I felt weird and didn’t know what to make of the situation it was freaking out and not thinking logically

I mentioned that we’re both in our mid 20s and maybe it’s a little juvenile for me to be so worked up about this but our feelings are valid we both felt weird and didn’t know how to handle what was otherwise a good night, so obviously something was up. His discomfort was the same as mine, we woke up and we were cuddling and we were kind of just like what the fuck is happening. He doesn’t remember going to sleep whereas I remember watching the movie and falling asleep however he does vaguely remember at the very least inviting me to watch the movie in his bed. He said he didn’t have problems and I didn’t need to apologize because I was drunk and when he sobered up, he didn’t kick me out and wanted to continue to cuddle but admitted that we might’ve been making a big deal out of it cause it was very intimate and sexually charged at times but we agreed like let’s stop freaking out let’s let the dust settle we didn’t fuck everything‘s gonna be fine we just need to reign ourselves in a little bit.

Dealing with his mom really him is a whole Nother issue and I don’t I’m not gonna be subject to that thank God 😂 I can’t wait to hear what awkward questions she asks him