The key there is that you said, "How I dealt with it." A lot of people can't even do that. They are paralyzed by it. You have great outlook in that you keep moving forward. That's amazing.

Your dad, that's big one to carry. I don't have that exact pain but a different kind of heavy Gorilla I carry around~(and I subscribe to the idea or preach, "I only have space for the good in my life at this time.")

But this helped me the other day,

Forgive yourself for having that dad, it's not your shame/anger? to carry around. Shame on him.

Find a picture of the little you and put it on your phone or near your computer. Remember him/her and give the love and self care talk that that kid deserved, instead of the memories that might pop up. Change how you spend that energy of hating your dad to healing that innocent kid. Re write the script for healing yourself.

"Give up hope for a better past"

You have now.

You deserve LOVE.