Hi I'm sorry you're going through this. I hope this information helps:

NYS has launched a mental health hotline: for FREE emotional support, consultation, and referral to a provider, call 1-844-863-9314.

NATIONAL SUICIDE PREVENTION LIFELINE: (800)- 273-TALK (82551)

NYC WELL program: https://nycwell.cityofnewyork.us/en/ is a city-wide free, confidential mental health support. Speak to a counselor via phone, text, or chat and get access to mental health and substance use services, in more than 200 languages, 24/7/365. The number to call is 1-888-NYC-WELL (1-888-692-9355).