Your assailant was evil and cruel to do this to you ,but the way your "beauty" had you treating people was also wrong,maybe not murderous wrong,but wrong never the less! You still have your life,you should definitely become a speaker for other beautiful model and hopefuls as how to treat other people,who just because their not as beautiful as you doesn't mean that they don't deserve dignity and respect!! Even though your not beautiful on the outside doesn't mean you can't still be a beautiful person,and help others,true beauty comes from what's inside you!.you really don't have much choice you can wait around feeling sorry for yourself and get depressed or you can speak to other girls and young models ,maybe even become a photographer yourself,just find a way to live in what skin you've got left,and the people that matter to you will accept you just the way you are and the people that don't,well their the ones that don't matter ! Best wishes for a beautiful future!