Learning about the chemical systems in our brains helped me a lot, learning about how to maximize dopamine and not become a slave to it. Which it sounds a bit like that’s what’s happening for you, the dopamine has killed your motivation. Getting off the games and other damaging sources of dopamine is a great start, dopamine is supposed to come from things you want to get done, it’s supposed to be released while you’re working towards something. But instead it’s just getting flooded from video games and leaves you empty handed, it’s supposed to lead you to an accomplishment and then you get serotonin and oxytocin! Learning more about it really changed how I look at life and motivation, and I’d also look into pathological demand avoidance if I was you. It is typically a trait in autism but it causes severe problems with working and knowing what to do with life and I have it, and you sound like me lol. Undecided, unmotivated, hating the whole system behind jobs and being too aware of being undervalued to where you can’t do it. I’ve actually switched to part time, 7 hours 4 days a week and I get wednesdays off in the middle so I don’t get too burnt out. It’s been super nice and I still make over 400 a week at a warehouse job, can’t really feel undervalued because I’m only there a fraction of what everyone else is so it’s fair to be valued less lol. But you’re doing good! You’ve had all these experiences met so many different people and learned a variety of skills, I definitely think the video games are your biggest enemy if you really want to change things tho!