I think of it like this:

If you weigh the outcomes between contacting a doctor again or not, which choice produces less stress in the long-term (because today is just right now)?

The temporary, but immediate and insistent stress of a phone call? And then hopefully help, maybe some meds, more support?

Or....

Your mental health declining until doing all of the above things is harder and there's more stress because you haven't been able to keep up with life around you?

Absolutely no hate, I've been there, but what makes me do the healthy thing for myself nowadays, after failing so many times, is knowing through failure which outcome leads where, and parenting my slightly-broken mind to do the thing that will hurt me less overall. Because how can I complain when I'm not helping myself, ya know?

I hope you feel better <3

Quick edit: also, stress and anxiety around doctors is normal. Don't be hard on yourself about feeling those things, just don't let them hold you back from getting healthier and feeling better things